My Psalm 2

Lord I stand in awe of Your wondrous love and grace. With just one touch You have brought me out of a cycle of hurt and despair. My life is changed and I’m left longing for more. I long to see Your face, to fall on my knees before You and just touch the hem of Your robes. You are everything I need. I worship You alone. Your word has been sweeter than honey on my lips and daily fills me to overflowing. How could You be so gracious to such a detestable person as me? I look and all I see is filth yet You make me as a precious jewel. I will follow You to the ends of the Earth. I will blindly follow where Your Spirit leads. I trust You with my life, I lay it all down at Your feet. Every step I take, I take in faith towards You. And I am blessed beyond measure. You have covered me in Your blood and I could never praise You enough. Let me be a fool for Your sake, as Paul, and bring You glory. Drench me in Your Spirit and let me boldly speak Your name. Your faithfulness astounds me, there is no one like You my God. My heart beats for You and You alone. I sing my praise to You louder with every passing day for You are my hope, my salvation, You are my peace and in You alone have I found my joy. You give me new life and I will praise You. Father, my all in all, there is no one I love more than You. Let the glory be all Yours God.

It's been soooo long!!!

So... I don't think anyone will even read this because I haven't posted in soooo long!!! BUT life has been crazy! SOOOO much has been happening! I live up here in good ol Sumas, WA now teaching preschool and just having a blast! The Canadian border is seriously two blocks from my apartment... no jokes... it's amazing! :) I have the BEST pastors in the world and absolutely LOVE my church, job, and friends up here.
I haven't really had internet but now I'm gettin it at home so I'm gonna try and keep this updated from now on! It's a goal of mine because I miss all my friends! :) ha ha... Rachel M I know you deleted me so not cool! It was only like 4 months since my last post! ha ha

Anyways... I should post some pics from El Salvador, I still haven't done that on here! goodness I'm a slacker!

BOBBY I MISS YOU!!!! (just a lil shout out!)

Just enough...

I feel like I'm getting back into the same old routine... the same old habits of doing just enough to get by.
I do my daily devotions, I pray all the time... but is that really what God wants? Yes, I have a passion and desire... it's strong and burns deep within me. I thirst after Him... yet, I do just enough to keep my connection with Him.

Am I really pressing in and going deeper or simply skimming the surface of where I need to be? I know there is so much more but I get comfortable where I am and forget to press forward. Comfort leads to content which leads to a stagnat spiritually life.

Committment and true devotion runs deeper than reading the Bible and praying. It's a way of life... living for Him.
I need to seek His face... not to lose too much ground...

don't let the flame burn out... right?

so...

So I lied about keeping this updated while I was in El Salvador and Nicaragua... yup that's right I went to Nicaragua too!

The internet was crazy slow there... when I was even able to get on it! But this summer was AMAZING! It's hard to even begin to describe everything I learned and all the experiences that I had. All I can say is that it was incredible!

I spent all of June in El Salvador and then I had the opportunity to go to Nicaragua so I took it and I spent all of July in Nica. I was there as a MAPS intern with King's Castle Ministries and it was incredible. I definately want to go back at some point... I mean that is where my heart it. That ministry is a ministry I could do for the rest of my life. Reaching children throughout the world with the message of Jesus Christ. It was normal for me to help witness to around 1,000 to 2,000 children each week and lead hundreds or thousands of those children to Christ. Also I was able to witness many healings and miracles... it was the greatest experience of my life... hands down!

Now time to pay off those loans so I can get back out on the field...

2 days...

I only have two days until I leave for El Salvador! Wohoo! My plane takes off at 1:30 AM on Sunday! yay! That is a red eye flight for sure!

I'm so excited but still a little nervous... I'm still short on my support money and time is running out! The past two days I've gotten a lot of money in the mail which I am super grateful for and I'm just praying that the rest comes in soon so I can de-stress a little before I take off.

Also, I just found out I may be spending some of my time helping the King's Castle in Nicaragua! So exciting! I seriously can't wait!

Obviously life has been crazy these past few weeks preparing for this trip... I've been working here and there, I got all four of my wisdom teeth pulled, moved all my stuff from my house in Santa Cruz to Modesto, and I've been scrambling to figure out my financial situation for this trip.

Well, I will try to keep this updated while I'm there... so look for pics and stuff!

My CrAzY Life

A few people have asked me why I haven't blogged in a while (aka like the only ppl who actually read this and care... maybe 4 of you... ha ha)
Anyways...
My life has been insane! There is so much going on right now and time is flying by... my time here in Santa Cruz is slowly slipping out of my hands and I am so sad.

I have like 4 days til graduation and it is bringing mixed feelings. I took my last final as an undergrad this morning and it was such a relief but as I was leaving Bethany I started crying because I realized that test was the ending of the four craziest, best, and worst years of my life... the years that have made me who I am today, that have grown me closer to God, challenged me in ways I never thought possible, and brought amazing people into my life. I have experienced my lowest lows and highest highs on the Bethany campus and it is hard and a little scary to imagine my life without it.

Graduation is on saturday... probably the last time I will see alot of my friends that I have known these past four years and that is hard. Also, I'm scared because I still can't really answer the "what are you doing after college" question.

Who knows...

SO... quick update... past month or so:
-still haven't gotten everything confirmed for El Salvador- been working hard to get it all together but it's really stressing me out... especially the finances

-Dad injured his back really badly, he is on workman's comp and can't really move much

-Parent's truck broke down, they are in a real tuff spot and it's killing me

-My best friend had her baby as well as a couple other people I know.

-Computer tweaked out and I lost all my final papers and I am having to re-do them

-Having a huge issue with some units at Bethany

-Have huge issues with $$$$$$

-Found my dress for graduation... finally! (if only I can find shoes too! :))


that's about it... boring, but really fast paced right now.

Outta the US

I'm ready to get out of the US! Ah! :) I get so anxious when I know I get to leave soon... I love being in other countries doing ministry... I LOVE IT! :)

Anyways...

just wanted to say that God is amazing and I have gotten around $1,000 or maybe a little more in the past two weeks. Now I can buy my plane ticket tomorrow...

which means....
I'm off to El Salvador on June 1! Wohoo!!!!

SOOOOO excited right now!